Love Dare - Day 4

Okay okay, I promised I wouldn't skip any days and I would stay committed. I am still committed and I'm not quitting, I just need to be more disciplined. Just like in my relationship.

Day 4's theme is love is thoughtful. I had to think on this for a minute or two. How thoughtful am I? I do have my moments like when I choose to wait to feed our son a new food so that my Husband can be there. Or yesterday I called in my Husband's steps (our fitness center is doing a contest to see who can get the most steps with a pedometer a day) for him yesterday which was a good thing because he was distraught when he realized he forgot. Thank goodness for thoughtful wives huh!

Now that I'm done tootin my horn, I know that there are areas where I should tend to a whole lot more on thoughtful. As we've covered before, I'm selfish. I have a hard time putting others needs before mine and that includes being more thoughtful about them than myself.

I remember when my Husband and I first met we worked for the same landscaping company and I always got off early before him. So I'd go to the nearest convenience store and buy him his favorite drink, a LARGE mountain dew or an energy drink, sometimes a Gatorade. I loved how his face always lit up when I would pick him up from work and place an ice cold Mountain Dew in his hand! He would always say how lucky he was and how great I am. After a while it wasn't a surprise anymore and the thanks were less and less, so eventually I stopped doing it.

I think this can apply to a lot of areas in our relationship. I have to admit, I really miss the beginning of our relationship. I miss him staring at me while we drove to work and laughing to himself saying "how did I get her?". Now, moments like that are far and few between. Sometimes I think he secretly says to myself "How did I end up with her?" Only this time the her isn't an amazing woman, just a grouchy, selfish, fat woman.

Last night I had the perfect opportunity to exercise some thoughfulness by holding my tongue. Like always, I didn't. I am not going into detail about this particular fight, but the point I want to make is that even though I feel I was right, what should have mattered more was how it would make my Husband feel. What it would do to his feelings and how it would affect our relationship. Thankfully we were quick to forgive and make up and then played Monopoly. But we're not always so lucky, some unnecessary fights go on forever and hurt our relationship even more. So I pray that today's theme sticks with me and I will remember it every time my tongue is about to wreak more havoc.